hurt finger

I have been sick for a week. Tap nose, sore throat, coughing, are totally torturing. I bought some medicine myself, I kinda took things for granted so that I still didnt feel good this morning after a week. I finally dragged myself to see the doctor.

"You should go do a X-ray examination!" She throwed me those words after I described my symptoms then she tured her head to other side seems i wasn't there. Considering her attitude I figured that she just didnt really care , wanted to send me away,.so i instited doing the regular examination first. And I was right, after a blood examination, she told me its just normal cold not serious disease. It was just caused by virus and I took the wrong medicine, that's why i kept being sick for so long.

Till now, you might ask, is this thing related my music life? Actually it is. They pierced my ring finger to get the blood and it kept being sore the whole day. It's ok if I didn't have to practise my piano. What a pity!I couldnt complete my today's practice. Hope it wont be sore tomorrow.

Damn! I have class tomorrow.

If I could just skip.......

Major scales, Minor scales, arpeggio, etc, there're really a lot of things included in my daily practice, as everybody knows, all thoes are bored. Someone had said that the process of learning music was bored and I have to say I completely agree with him. Actually that's why I have always thought about the same thing, if i coudl just skip the practice.....

Back to the reality, i know, thats never gonna happen I could play piano very well without practice. But still, I can't help feeling bored when I am enhancing my basic playing skills. Suddenly, I realise that what the differences between a successful person and a loser. Only people who could bear the pain and overcome difficulties would succeed. Losers are always give up when encounter problems.

I jumpped up and refreshed myself, continued doing my practice. I didnt wanna be a loser. Like the guy in the movie who turned his thomb down and yelled loser on others. Thats a terrible picture and I absolutely didnt wanna see that happen to myself.

"if I could just skip.... oh ...nah nah nah.....I will do it step by step."

Technique and Musicianship

According to Beethoven, one of the greatest musicians in the history, music is the most important invention, even more important than philosophy. Its true, to most of musicians that music is everything.

So far as I know, music is not a thing could only be measured by its technical part.Lets take instrument players as an example. No matter what instruments you play, ultimately, you are playing music not showing technique. I know many peoplo who put all their attention on the technical part. They practise Major scales,Minor scales,etc thousands of times a day. They are really hard-working, but when they play a score, it sounds fade or over emotional, even though their technique is ok or even great. No doubtly, a good instrumental performer needs strong playing technique, but like I mentioned, its not to show technique but to play music. It always need to put the musicianship in the first place.

I heard of a seemingly strange thing from internet once, a guy, who was considered as a brilliant performer when graduated from a chinese music college and then he went abroad continued his music study. At his final performance exam of first semester he got A on his technical part, but D, the lowest grade, on his musicianship part. " I cant feel music in your performance." the professor said to him.

To my opinion, music is a thing that is more sensitive, its more about one's feelings. That's why Mozart could compose scores at 6, better than adults which had engaged in music for years. To enhanse one's musicianship is even more important than to enhance one's instrumental technique. especially for people who want to become composer.

However, we should never ignore the technical part. A really good musician could always combine the two very well and creat beautiful music. Further more, a strong instrmental technique could always help with your composing.

Through the web camera

It's been a long time I havent seen my familly. I have to say I really miss them. Nostalgic feelings keeps torturing me, especially in the air of chinese new year. People make noises by playing the fireworks, the holiday is just around the corner.

Thanks to the fellow who invented instant messager so that I could meet my familly through the camera on internet.

I chose a day that all my familly were at home and logged on my QQ, a chinese instant messager software similar to MSN. Tears ran out at the moment when I saw my mother's face, then I realized I had been missing her so much. I was not a guy who afraid of livng alone but I just couldnt help being homesick in the holiday time. nobody could escape the tears in such situation.I didn't say anything, even things like "I miss you". I just listened to my sister talking, laughing everybody 's talking and laughing. Thank god I didnt turn on my camera so that they couldnt saw me crying harder and harder or everybody would cry no doubtly.

I couldnt calm down even afte logged out QQ, thinking of the old days I had with my family. Then a powerful energy breathed into my body and I felt even more energetic to go for my dream. I definitely knew where the energy came from, my family, and i knew it was and would always be the resourse of the power that would keep pushing me to the top.